Wow! What a Revelation!

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Christian writers are different than secular writers.

Most of the ones I know or have contact with worry about whether their writing is truly a call from God or simply a selfish desire on their part. especially when they are pre-published, a sweeter way of saying not published. But the worry doesn’t necessarily go completely away after they get that first coveted contract.

After all, as much as I love reading and writing fiction. And believe me I do!  But it’s still fiction!

I spend months and months writing and rewriting a story and making it as exciting and as interesting as I can for my readers.  They read the book and that’s it! Finished! They close the book or most likely these days, hit the button on the e-reader of their choice and that’s the end.

Most likely they enjoyed it or so I hope, but….what then? Did it touch them? Did it make a difference in their life? Did it clarify something for them in their own daily walk with God?

Those are things I will probably never know on this side of heaven.

Well, anyway back to my awesome weekend revelation I had.

You may or may not know that I was diagnosed with bilateral brain tumors last year and have been having all sorts of issues because of them and their treatment. I am not and most likely will never be quite as healthy as I was pre-brain tumors–unless God chooses to intervene which I pray He will do. But that’s up to Him.

I’ve had memory issues all my life. It made school a bit more difficult for me than it should have been. I’ve always had problems with remembering names and even important life events. I once completely forgot about a trip to North Carolina and through the Smokey Mountains.

Now, it’s even worse! I have trouble remembering a specific word when I need it most. And forget about remembering what I need to do on any given day. Lists are my friends these days! I’m sure it’s noticeable to others, but maybe not as much as to me as I struggle to remember simple words.

Along with the memory issues, I spend a lot of time in a sort of far away being in a bubble feeling. It’s sort of hard to explain that symptom, but it’s there.

But an amazing thing happens when I sit down at my computer to write, whether it’s for a blog such as this or for the current story I’m working on. The fog clears–the words come-the details I need are remembered–most of the time! I feel like my old self as I write. I have clarity as well as vision to write the story God has put on my heart.

This weekend the reason why that happens came to me like a flash of lightning on a dark stormy night. It brightened up my spirit and showed be the blazing of God’s glory and His power.

I am still anointed by God to write!

What an amazing and awesome revelation that is for me or for any Christian writer!  I feel humbled and blessed that God still has a job for me to do in spite of all my health issues and my limitations.

Wow! God is so good!